Simplistic-reality

2010-03-27T06:33:00.001+08:00

Tell me this isn't happening.

2010-03-26T22:04:00.001+08:00

What does it mean when I get jealous when she talks to other guys.

2010-03-22T18:47:00.001+08:00

And at least silver for NAPFA.

2010-03-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hope I score well for all the test in JC life.
Hope band will not be as boring as before.

2010-03-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

What happened to my passion?
What happened to my drive in music?
Where have they gone?

2010-03-21T07:13:00.001+08:00

Why does life suck before my birthday?

2010-03-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

It sucks when the two of us have nothing to say to one another.

2010-03-19T19:34:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if SJIMB sucks or it's just him who hates SJI guys.
Sometimes I wonder if what I've done last time was a mistake.

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Sometimes I wonder if I like her or not.

2010-03-12T04:54:00.002+08:00

I really feel guilty for the important stuff that I didn't do or complete.

2010-03-08T04:14:00.001+08:00

Hectic school life is driving me crazy.
I really need a break.

2010-02-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

I must put in more effort in studies and mass PE!

2010-02-18T05:45:00.000+08:00

How am I suppose to get back my interest and passion in music and percussion?

2010-02-18T05:43:00.000+08:00

Apparently life sucks and I think it's gonna suck more in the future.

2010-02-14T07:21:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day 2010.

2010-02-02T05:33:00.001+08:00

1T12 is my class.

2010-01-29T18:19:00.001+08:00

I hope life's getting better in CJC,
apparently there is, lucky.
By the way, I didn't realise that CJC is actuallt quite big with a tennis court at the back of the school.

2010-01-29T05:23:00.000+08:00

Now I think that the appeal system sucks man.
I can have a good friend in CJC, but because of appeal system, he/she might be gone for the next day.
That's damn sad and terrible.
Just hoping better people could get in.

2010-01-28T05:41:00.001+08:00

I shall not think about ACJC anymore and move on in CJC.
At least CJC is improving, no regrets man.
I'm gonna enjoy myself.

2010-01-28T04:40:00.001+08:00

First day of school, kind of excited!

2010-01-27T07:28:00.000+08:00

Catholic Junior College (Science)

2010-01-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

Pray that Stanrly, Leonard Song and YuZhong make it so CJC.

2010-01-25T00:32:00.001+08:00

3 days time,
sleepless night sucks.

2010-01-24T08:02:00.000+08:00

4 days time.

2010-01-22T06:27:00.001+08:00

School's starting in 6 days, can't wait.

2010-01-21T14:15:00.000+08:00

I'm just a loser who can't take failures and stand up after falling.

2010-01-20T09:35:00.000+08:00

School's starting in 8 days time.
The feeling is just weird.

2010-01-18T22:05:00.001+08:00

I hate myself whenever people praise me for getting 9 points.
I failed, I didn't do what is expected,
and people are congratulating me for my failure.
I know it's not their fault, but I just hate it.

I still can't get over it, 9 points, I never thought this could happen to me.
Utter failure.

2010-01-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for a brand new school life in CJC,
but that's if I can get in.

2010-01-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

I will not regret choosing CJC!

2010-01-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

I failed to get together with you for the next two years.

2010-01-14T00:07:00.001+08:00

Never mind, no risk shall be taken, I will go for Catholic Junior College.

2010-01-13T21:23:00.001+08:00

I hope I can really get into ACJC science, pray hard man.

2010-01-13T05:54:00.001+08:00

Last performance in ACJC today.

2010-01-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

I guess we are going to different schools in the future.
I can't ask you to attend the same school as me cause I'm no one to you,
I understand this fact.
I hope I can forget you in the future.
All the best in your future endeavour.
I love you, peijing.

2010-01-12T07:26:00.002+08:00

I really hope you could come CJC with me,
but I don't know how to tell you that,
because you and I are not even related.

2010-01-12T06:20:00.003+08:00

You guys can go out there laugh at me for choosing CJC as the first choice.
I know I'm the biggest loser who got a very high chance of getting into ACJC by appealing into band but I just don't want to.
I know I suck for not getting the expected 8 points instead of 9.

2010-01-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

GCE O Level 2009

English: B3
Combined Humanities: A2 (Fuck)
Mathematics: A1
Additional Mathematics: A1
Physics: A2 (WTF)
Chemistry: A1
Biology: A1
Chinese: A2

L1R5: 9
L1R4: 7

2010-01-11T01:59:00.000+08:00

I can't bring myself to sleep.
Few hours remaining.

2010-01-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

I believe
I will walk out happily from the hall tomorrow.

2010-01-10T12:35:00.000+08:00

1 day remaining.

After yesterday,
I realised I'm musically retarded.

2010-01-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

I will be playing for ACJC open house,
surprising.
Just hope my O Level score is good enough to enter that school so that the performance will not be a waste of time for me.

2010-01-09T06:10:00.000+08:00

2 days remaining.

I wonder how practice will turn out later on.

2010-01-08T14:54:00.000+08:00

I'm going for band training in AC tomorrow once again,
and yea I'm quite excited about it.

I really hope I can score well for O Levels and enter ACJC so I can continue band practices with them.

2010-01-08T12:38:00.000+08:00

Rotting at home and using the computer for the damn whole day are not fun at all.
And these have been going on for the past few days and it will continue until I receive my results.
Die.

2010-01-08T06:11:00.000+08:00

LiveJournal created,
but URL will not be revealed.

2010-01-08T06:07:00.001+08:00

3 days remaining.
I don't really have the mood to do anything important now.
Results is the only thing filled in my mind now.

2010-01-07T16:16:00.001+08:00

I dreamt about getting the results,
but I woke up before touching my own result slip.
Perhaps I'm thinking too much about the upcoming result day
and I should stop.

2010-01-07T06:54:00.001+08:00

Just as I was about to start running,
droplets of water just have to hit on me.

2010-01-07T06:12:00.002+08:00

I realised,
nobody is fearless in this world.

2010-01-07T06:12:00.001+08:00

4 days remaining,
dead or alive.

2010-01-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

I'm tired,
but my mind is tied down with all the worries I'm having about the results on Monday.
At times I'm confident but there are times which I'm not.
What if I didn't perform as expected?
How am I gonna react on that day?

2010-01-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

I must fear no more.

2010-01-06T15:20:00.001+08:00

No matter how poor a man is,
he must still uphold his dignity.

Since they love to bully new workers,
I shall not go back and work there.

2010-01-06T12:22:00.001+08:00

Men of integrity
Men for others

These are the values of a SJI boy.
It must be held up high.

2010-01-06T12:01:00.001+08:00

Why the hell am I so scared?

2010-01-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

5 days remaining,
results are coming out one day earlier than I have expected.

2010-01-06T07:24:00.000+08:00

6 days remaining.
I will score well!

2010-01-05T06:38:00.001+08:00

7 days left.
My mum insisted that I shouldn't go back anymore.

2010-01-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

In this society,
it's important to be rich.
The poor will always be looked down by people.

I swear,
once I have enough money,
I wouldn't go back there again.

2010-01-04T21:32:00.001+08:00

The question is,
to go back or not?
To go back and earned money as well as continue being bullied by the management,
or to have backbone and stay at home but no income available.
What should I do?

2010-01-04T06:42:00.001+08:00

8 more days to the release of O Level results.
I must not fear,
I believe in myself,
I can do it,
I will do well.

2010-01-03T03:37:00.000+08:00

I thought sleeping early could prevent me from getting sick,
so I slept at 10 last night.
And now I'm awake.

2010-01-02T17:19:00.000+08:00

Man must always live for themselves.
The world is selfish.

2010-01-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

Sleepless nights are things that I've experienced throughout the entire holiday.

2010-01-01T09:05:00.000+08:00

I saw most of my friends yesterday,
but I just can't see her.
I guess that's fate.

2010-01-01T02:42:00.001+08:00

What the hell am I thinking?

2010-01-01T02:27:00.001+08:00

2010,
a new beginning.

2009-12-31T16:59:00.001+08:00

I will come back home next year.

2009-12-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

Last day of 2009,
I'm going to miss this year.

2009-12-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I was cheerful,
stupid videos in youtube can actually make me laugh.

2009-12-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

2 more days and 2009 will come to a close.
Time flies, really.
Life in secondary school and secondary school band have already ended.
I can't wait for the new beginning in JC life.

Friends, results and achievements are things that definitely made me happy throughout 2009.

Results will be released in two weeks time,
I hope I can score well.

2009-12-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

I'm the greatest liar.

I have told you I'm fine when I'm not.
I have told you that things were alright when they were not.
I have told you that it is possible for us to become friends when I don't even know what will happen in this future.

I have also lied to myself that there's hope between us when it is impossible.

2009-12-28T20:29:00.002+08:00

Humans are the most contradictory living things on Earth.

Being the most intelligent animals ever, we do not do things that are morally right.
Terrorism and global warming are mistakes that we committed and yet we have not put an end into it.
People are killing one another because of various issues like religion,
pure stupidity.
We humans do not even stand together as one united people.
Even animals who can't think know how to help one another and protect each another in times of need.

What has the world become?

2009-12-28T05:08:00.001+08:00

The only way in which you don't want people to laugh at you is to work hard.

At times I laughed at my sister for this and that,
but she just doesn't get what I'm really trying to mean.

2009-12-28T04:49:00.000+08:00

Singapore Idol is an epic fail competition in the first place.

Why do people get frustrated over the winner of this event?
Seriously I don't even give a damn about the whole thing in the first place,
it's just irritating that people are spamming the news feed about the competition last night.

The whole event is already screwed when they audience have the choice to vote for the winners.

Laughable.

2009-12-27T16:22:00.003+08:00

I tried to make a comeback in percussion.

Failed.

I can't do my double strokes properly,
I can't keep my timing consistent,
I can't maintain my strokes for long period of time,
my strokes weren't even.

I used to remember I have high expectations in my playing as well as my section mates.
My expectations to them were crazy enough for them to die,
I make sure they are the best in the band,
I make sure they are the best secondary school percussionist in Singapore.
Many people know if they come to the percussion section in SJIMB,
their lifes wouldn't be easy.

But now...

2009-12-27T05:11:00.001+08:00

I was never so crazy about mousehunt until the tournament started yesterday which last will last for 24 hours.
Imagine spamming horn calls every 15 minutes for like 24 hours straight and getting third in worldwide championship?
This is pure madness.

2009-12-26T07:52:00.000+08:00

I'm always wondering why am I always waking up so early but don't know what to do in the morning.
I just have to stone in front my computer throughout the entire morning.
Wasting life.

2009-12-25T07:12:00.001+08:00

Christmas wishes for 2009,
raw score of 6,7 or 8 points for L1R5 for O Levels,
get into the JC of my choice.

2009-12-25T00:02:00.001+08:00

Christmas 2009.

2009-12-24T19:34:00.001+08:00

Another boring holiday season.

2009-12-24T05:54:00.001+08:00

Christmas's Eve.

2009-12-23T09:59:00.001+08:00

I guess I better not run once I wake up,
I felt no power and strength on my legs just now.
I actually felt like sleeping when I was running and when I was resting, I nearly fell asleep.
Pathetic.

2009-12-22T20:01:00.001+08:00

Avatar
-bravery and leadership were points that impressed me.

2009-12-22T09:34:00.001+08:00

There are three kinds of people that you live for,
family, lover and yourself.

There is only one person that you can trust in this world,
that's yourself.

2009-12-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

I have quit band because I couldn't handle the workload.
I resigned from work because I can't stand the manager and I feel quite bored.
I failed to ask more people to come for band chalet.
I lost a friend today.
I'm getting frustrated over family and personal matters.
I can't win her heart after so long.
I'm addicted to games.
I have nothing better to do.

Holiday wasn't as fun as I've thought.
I lost myself, finally.

Failure in life.

2009-12-21T23:56:00.003+08:00

Stages of depression?

2009-12-21T23:56:00.001+08:00

I'm real sorry about that.

2009-12-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

Fucking hypocrite,
get out of my life.

2009-12-21T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry,
I drank again.

2009-12-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

I will never work in that fucking place again.
If I ever hold a wedding there next time, I make sure that fucking manager serve me.

2009-12-21T10:01:00.000+08:00

What's wrong with me?
Am I going crazy soon?

2009-12-21T09:07:00.000+08:00

If anyone dares to mess with me,
I make sure you get double or triple of what I've got.
And you die.

2009-12-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

Why am I working while the rest are going overseas for holiday?
Why am I working while everyone is enjoying themselves wherever they are?
Why am I still on the train going back home while everyone is asleep?
Why am I staying in Singapore every holiday while the rest get to travel every year?

2009-12-20T07:54:00.001+08:00

She's coming back today,
but somehow I don't have any feeling about it.

2009-12-19T18:42:00.001+08:00

I can't even answer a basic kinematics question properly asked by a secondary 2 boy.
My brain is useless already.

2009-12-19T06:56:00.001+08:00

Working days for next week,
Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday.

2009-12-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Things that I normally look forward to after work were:
1) Pay
2) Sitting down
3) Listening to music

It was quite tiring today.

2009-12-18T15:06:00.000+08:00

Why am I so tired now?

2009-12-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

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